Wish I May Lyrics by Ani Difranco

Wish I May

Im losing my love of adventure
Im losing all respect
For me and myself tonight
I wonder what happens if I get to
The end of this tunnel
And there isnt a light
Ive worn down the treads
On all of my tires
Ive worn through the elbows
And the knees of my clothing
And Im stumbling down
The gravel driveway of desire
Trying not to wake up
My sleepy self-loathing

Do you ever have that dream
When you open your mouth
And you try to scream
But you cant make a sound
Thats everyday starting now
Thats everyday starting now

Dont tell me its gonna be alright
You cant sell me on your optimism tonight
Its a stiff competition
To see who can stay up later
The stars or the street lights
And all they really want
Is to be alone with the darkness
No more wish I may
No more wish I might

It takes a stiff upper lip
Just to hold up my face
I gotta suck it up and savor
The taste of my own behavior
I am spinning with longing
Faster then a roulette wheel
This is not who I meant to be
This is not how I meant to feel

I dont think I am strong enough
To do this much longer
God, I wish I was stronger
This song could never be long enough
To express every longing
God, I wish it was longer...