Vaporub Lyrics by Bob Mould

Vaporub

Kept my heart locked away / kept it far away from me
Found a place by the river where nobody goes
Buried far beneath the levee

Places where I used to go / when it rained, my heart went deeper
Deep blue underneath the sea / washed away for no one to see

I dont have the feelings Im supposed to know
I dont get the feeling that you understand
Only get the feeling that youre feeling sorry for me
Thats never been the point of what Ive said

Never really knew what love was / mixed it up with other thoughts
Growing up alone doesnt help one sort it out
Even when youre here, youre not

Never learned to trust another person
Never knew a person who could understand my words
Why I chose to share them, I will never know, but knowing
No one took the time to understand

Do I want forgiveness, or the thrill of maybe knowing
I could change direction, never caring where Im going
Sometimes all the time it takes to make your destination
Isnt charted out as clearly as it seems

Now the smell of vaporub comes over me
All the shame of weakness builds again
Rules and expectations I cant follow any more
I became the person that I am

Wouldnt want to make you think you havent found a way to me
Its only that its not as simple as it seems to be